Old post 11

It seems pretty certain now that Dad is not going to get better. He is so weakened that any infection will signal the end according to the medics as he will not have the strength to fight it. I veer between being strong and crying. Amazingly strong most of the time as if someone up … [Read more…]

Old post 7

Today, I am going to visit my Dad in hospital. This time it will be different because I am going to woman up and talk to him about the fact that he is dying. We don’t know what time-frame we are dealing with but I sense it will not be long. So there are conversations … [Read more…]

12th birthday boy

Today it is your 12th birthday. Happy Birthday darling boy. 12 things then for today. 1. It was so important to me that you were a boy because your Dad had already got daughters from previous relationships. He was so proud to have a son. 2. You were born at 2 minutes past eleven in … [Read more…]

Old post 5

What does it feel like to make a hospital visit to a loved one? After what feels like weeks of living in limbo not knowing what was wrong with him, it appears he has hepatitis brought on by a clash of the drugs he was taking for various health conditions. Until a month ago, I … [Read more…]

Old post 3

Tonight. my husband is visiting my elderly father in hospital and there is still no diagnosis. I could not face it after a stressful weekend and then the things that need doing here towards getting ready for a long-planned 3 day break in Derbyshire and an imminent house move. That sounds very selfish I know. … [Read more…]

Old post 2

Well, you could say it has turned into quite a week! There is the ongoing need to find a house to rent. Dad is in hospital and I am waiting to hear what is wrong with him and what happens next. So time to do the weekly check in to reassure myself that there are … [Read more…]

Old post 1

I am using this blog to move some of my old posts across to so I have them for the future and for the children to read if they see fit in the future. My Dad is seriously ill in hospital. I have had so many lovely and supportive messages on my blog and Twitter … [Read more…]